Tuesday, August 12, 2008
I’ve decided that I’m going to give it a go at resurrecting my blog, and I thought I would start out with these pictures of my deck. I call it “My Haven”, and that is what it has been to me this summer.
There is a scale that I have seen before where they measure the amount of stress in your life by certain life events that happen to you, like losing a job, getting married (or divorced) etc. I looked back over my life this year, and here are a few items on the list of what I have gone through:
-Quit my job in order to do missions work
-Lived in a foreign country for 10 weeks
-Returned home and found out that I had to move out of my apartment
-Was jobless for two months
-Lived out of a suitcase for two months
-Moved into a much smaller apartment and had to downsize in a major way
-Started a new job
-Went through some very painful relationship issues
-Was in a car accident and totaled my car – did not find a new one until five days before Christmas.
In reviewing this list, I think I must have racked up a few points on the scale!
In some ways, it has been a very difficult summer, a difficult year actually, but when it would all seem to be too much for me, I would go and sit on my deck for a while, and somehow I would make it through.
I remember reading in one of John Eldredge’s books where he wrote about the grief that he experienced after his best friend died, and he said that the only thing that would really help him was to be outside, to be surrounded by nature. It was the one thing that seemed to bring him healing. I feel the same when I sit outside and I listen to the birds, and watch them flit among the trees, or see the sunlight filtering through the leaves. It does something inside of me. It feeds my soul.
It was a bit of a transition to move into an apartment that is much smaller, but what I did not take into account when I moved in the winter, was this wonderful deck that I have. It’s like having an extra room, and if there was any way that I could move my bed out there, I would!
It’s been a bit of a quiet summer actually – much different than any I’ve experienced for a long time. I’ve spent many evenings out on that deck just thinking and praying, and sometimes I feel guilty when I see how busy some of my friends are, but when I think about the fact that I spent last summer living in a house with nine people (5 of them children), living on tortillas and beans, and doing children’s VBS programs every other week, I don’t feel so guilty any more! I just say “Lord, there were a lot of twists and turns in the road that brought me here, but I am thankful for ‘My Haven’.”